I want to push myself to write here more often. It’s been almost two weeks since I last completed an entry. I think the issue is that I want every entry to be something spectacular. Every time I write I want to tell an amazing story. But that is not realistic.
In Hawaii and New Zealand I was moving around all the time and doing something new every day. I had a lot of stories to tell so I was more motivated to write. I had memorable experiences and I wanted to share them.
Even though my time in Australia hasn’t been nearly as adventurous it’s still makes up a part of this trip. It is challenging in its own way. When I decided to create this website I committed myself to sharing my story. That means sharing my thoughts and my emotions as well as my experiences. I think I fell into a trap of trying to paint a beautiful picture of my trip. And it’s no wonder that I have lost the desire to write lately.
I want to write here at least 4 days a week moving forward. It doesn’t have to be a huge entry. It can be as simple as a sentence explaining something that made me smile that day. Or I can write about something that I am grateful for. When I have amazing stories to tell I will tell them.
Another thought. I’m finding that writing here does not fulfill me as much as writing in a personal journal. The issue is that I am censoring myself here. I have family and close friends reading these entries (I hope) and I am not prepared to be as open as I would be if I were writing in a journal that no one would read.
At the moment I don’t have a journal for personal use. I didn’t bring one along with me because I didn’t want to carry it. And I thought that the blog would fill the shoes of a personal journal.
I’ve come to the conclusion that I need somewhere to write where I can be more open than I am able to be here. I feel more like myself when I have a medium in which to give my more personal thoughts and emotions physical form. Eventually this website could be that for me. But I’m not ready to take that leap just yet.